3.30.2009

"If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don't even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery--isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you'll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It's the only good fight there is."

- BUKOWSKI

3.23.2009

The great question that has never been answered, and which I have not yet been able to answer, despite my thirty years of research into the feminine soul, is "What does a woman want?"

-SIGMUND FREUD

3.16.2009

i'm a rock, it can't be stopped.

no it's never enough when you live without love.

3.13.2009

salt snap


today, while chipping away at a rigorous three day room clean, i found this business card for saltsnap.com.

the story behind this is as follows; last september while i was wandering the streets of fukuoka japan, in search of the supreme shop, i was stopped by this japanese guy with a camera who, in what very little english he could throw together, kindly asked if he could take my photo. i looked confused as to why he wanted to take my photo, until he shoved this business card into my hand and showed me a form that he wanted to fill out, with my name, occupation, and outlining my outfit. basically this website is similar to lookbook.nu, except with photographers who roam the streets asking fashionable folks to take their photo.

i had completely forgot about the site, until today when i found the card. i decided to head over to the site and found this. i love that the sun/shadow on my face in combination with my mustache at the time makes me look slightly japanese, and had a laugh over "comments: loves japan!".

3.11.2009

i'm going to love this movie



it's probably going to ruin me, as well.

3.01.2009

without love.

such a great song.

All in nature ends in tragedy
and I was the first to finally fade away from my grandfather's memories.
How long 'til the day my memories of him finally fade away?
Dissolving into gray.

Is breathing just the ticking of an unwinding clock?
counting down the time it takes
for you to comprehend the sheer magnitude of
every single precious breath you've ever wasted?

I did everything I could.
I bargained with the universe to take my life instead of hers.
But no amount of money, drugs or tears could keep her here.
What purpose did her suffering serve?

Is breathing just the ticking of an unwinding clock?
counting down the time it takes
for you to comprehend the sheer magnitude of
every single precious breath you've ever wasted?

So much misery.
So much indifference to so much suffering
we can become tempted by appeals to hatred.
This world ain't nothing more than what we make of it.

Revenge ain't no solution
to the inevitable pain
every single one of us must face in losing
the kindred spirits in our lives.
Lives so brief, so disappointing, so confusing.

As Cronie slipped away I held her in my arms,
reduced to "Please don't leave me. What will I do?"
But this cosmic sadness is just here to remind you
that without Love, breathing is just the ticking of...



listen to:
PROPAGANDHI: supporting caste.